Yes, everyone told me to be prepared for sleepless nights and endless diaper changes. But I still wasnt quite prepared for this 😉
In the last 20 days or so I havent slept a single night. My idea of a ‘good sleep’ has changed. Now ‘good sleep’ is when I can manage to get an hour of sleep at a stretch. My body’s sleep cycle has also changed. The first few nights, it was difficult to stay awake. Then my body shifted to a 2-hourly rythm. I’d automatically wake up every 2 hours to check on the baby. Now my body has shifted to a 45-60 minute cycle. I just CANNOT sleep for more than an hour at a strech. Even in the day, when the baby’s asleep or someone else is watching over him.
The baby is more active in the night. from about 1 or 2 am to 7 or 8 am, its a continuous series of feeds, burpings, nappy changes, trying to put the baby to sleep and repeat. Sometimes I manage 30 min naps in between. By morning, I’m quite cranky. I hand the baby over to his Nana-Nani and make a beeline for the bed. I ask them not to wake me until the next feed.. or maybe the next day. The baby seems to recognise when I’m more tired than usual. He specifically choses those days to demand a feed within 30 minutes of my going to be. Or maybe it is just that he misses me more 😉
My mom cant quite understand my aversion to her breakfast call.. or why I’m so grumpy in the mornings. She sees the baby on his best behaviour all through the day. He sleeps without making a sound or demanding anything. And on the rare night she’s seen him, he seems to know and behaves himself 😉
Try as I may, I cant seem to manage more than 3-4 hours of sleep (in 5 or 6 or more breaks) in the day.