I want to look pretty again. I want to feel in control. I want that smart confident young woman back.
Sigh. These days, I just dont feel that way.
I feel lost.
I dont know what to expect. Each day there are new changes to my body. Each day Juno changes. His movements change. And I dont know what they mean. Each day the ‘pregnancy symptoms’ show up in various combinations inspite of my desperate efforts to keep them away. They defy all logic and common sense.
The fact that I’m at home and dont go out at all doesnt help. There’s no chance/scope to dress up. And also none of my nice clothes fit me any more. My husband is a sweetheart though – he insists I look oh-so-cute in his extra large Tshirts 😉
I think more than anything else.. I dont feel like myself anymore. Everything’s changed. Pregnancy, moving to Indore and working from home. 3 big changes.
I’m trying to look around for anything familiar. And I dont see it. My face, my clothes, my body, my surroundings have all changed. The only familiar thing is my desktop! Thankfully my laptop hasnt changed.
I miss me.